WOW has it been a crazy, busy month! Of course the holidays are upon us. So a lot has happened since the last time I've logged on. I just don't know where to begin. Let see..
Well, I haven't had much time to decorate for Christmas, but I did find these while thrifting..
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| upcycled & vintage sheets |
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| felt cutouts etc. |
I haven't had much to decorate for Christmas though. As we're going through a rough patch right now. But did manage a project..
Cute right? I found a "make believe" at the thrift store and decided it was perfect for my own version. I really love how it came out :).
I'm also getting rid of all of my Pyrex, but the pink. Keep your eye on my
Etsy Shop.
In other news, If you follow me on Facebook, and have joined the Pyrex Group, you might know whats going on with me right now. Somewhat. As I'm being vague out of sheer embarrassment. I really appreciate all of your support!!! From the deepest, sincerest part of my heart ...THANK YOU ALL!!! The outreach from everyone has been beyond anything I would have ever expected!!!! It's been hard, & it's been tough, BUT I'm a fighter, and refuse to give in. Both My Wonderful Husband and I are trying to the ends of the earth, to make things better. And of course there's our miracle to consider, Samuel Lucas. Whom we both cherish with every fiber of our being!
I never would have thought we'd be here. See, if you know who I am, you know I'm a believer of ...well... Love. It might be silly to most, but not to me. I grew up thinking this was a way of life. I grew up loving the stories of Prince Charming coming to rescue the Princess from a horrible and wicked life. To this day, romance plays a huge part in my life.
I guess it's time to get real. Things aren't what I expected. Things aren't at that "happily ever after"point.
Things are... well to be quite honest, rough. I miss the passion. I miss the spontaneity. I MISS.. the ROMANCE. Among other things, this is what I miss most of all. It used to be so passionate! So raw! So RARRR!
It can get there at times, but it seems I have to... try really hard. And let me tell ya, I'm not used it!! Even so. I try, I try hard. So hard that at times I feel as though.. well quite frankly, I feel as though I'm not what my Husband wants. Not good enough. Not intelligent enough. Not.. "bad" enough. I know I'm smart, I can be Sexy, and know I wouldn't have any second guess if I were single. We've all been there.
Clearly we want this to work, or we'd be signing divorce papers by now. WHAT am I missing here??? I come to you with sincerity, honesty, and most of all? In search of how to keep what's most important to me, alive. LOVE. I don't believe Love is a chosen decision. I had no control over falling in love with my Husband. I don't believe in being "bad". I grew up learning that being a good girl (as well as sexy and desirable), is what a good husband really wants. I definitely don't believe in being FAKE. Honesty is my best quality!
Newho, I do LOVE my Husband, and He LOVES me! Though it seems things are starting to go south. ..FAST. Where did I go wrong? Have I let myself go? Am I asking for too much?? The bottom line is, I LOVE my Man. I always have, always will, and I won't give in so easily! However, I do need that passion back!! That connection that keeps us together! Ladies.. Gentlemen.. you know what I'm saying.
I know there will be those of you who will read this, and think I'm ..well.. over exaggerating (a fan club if you will). Being to dramatic. All I have to say is, well.. Take it as you will. Period. My interest isn't to convince anyone. What I want to know is, how do I get this back..
Am I on a different playing field than I used to be?? Tell me. What do you think??
<3,
Veronica